Special Needs Dad 365

Hope Is A Good Thing
Tonight, I was at a dinner meeting and we were going from person to person around the table to talk about some of our interests in relation to reading, tv shows, and movies. It was such an interesting exercise because we got to learn something about those we had just met as well as hear new details about colleagues.

When it was my turn, I told the group that I don’t typically watch tv series. I’m not one that likes to go from week to week to see new episodes. Yes, there is the potential to binge watch but I rarely partake. I try to read at night but usually, I flip a few pages and then I’m asleep. Or should I say I get through a few pages and then read the final page two or three times because my eyes shut in the middle of it. My fortay, at this point, has been writing and for those of you have been following along, this is the 84th day I have done so.

Movies, however, are an entirely different animal. I worked in a movie theater from the time I was in high school until the time I got my first full-time job out of college. For several years after, I still went back and took the occasional shift. That theater and watching movies shaped a piece of who I am today.

We watch a myriad of films every month. It’s what we do as a family and how we spend a portion of our weekends. My favorite movie, to this point, is "The Shawshank Redemption", starring Tim Robbins and Morgan Freeman, released in 1994. I’m not sure what attracted me so strongly to it then, but I know exactly what does today.

One of the most memorable lines from the movie is when Robbins’ character, Andy, tells Freeman’s character, Red, “Remember Red, hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things, and no good thing ever dies.” At the end of the movie, Red is going to find Andy in Mexico and closes the movie saying, “I find I'm so excited, I can barely sit still or hold a thought in my head. I think it's the excitement only a free man can feel, a free man at the start of a long journey whose conclusion is uncertain. I hope I can make it across the border. I hope to see my friend and shake his hand. I hope the Pacific is as blue as it has been in my dreams. I hope.”

I never knew hope had always been such a big part of my life. I never knew that I would look to it in so many difficult times. I do know that hope is the best of things. It is up to each of us to never let it die. This journey has indeed been long and where it will end is absolutely uncertain. I feel excitement when I periodically hear there is something new that may free Livy and our family from the binds of epilepsy. Sometimes it’s all we have left to get us from one point to the next. I hope that the dreams I have for Livy and warriors like her, come true. I hope.